Growing Pains

Growing Pains

Unfamiliar markings and nonsense on a page

Explanations of confusion underlined with rage

People reading but not feeling because something is in their head

If you don’t care don’t read it or you will leave me seeing red

I get upset quite easy and I am angry now as I write

I can flip in a second I can shift from black to white

My emotion is raw and my pain is deep

I guess I sewed my seeds and now it’s time to reap

I get scared real easy I sometimes wonder why

Sometimes I get so lonely I wish I would die

Some one please help me clear the destruction from my mind

Maybe then I could figure out what I am here to find

People say Kyle you have time have fun while you can

But I need to grow and find out what it takes to make a man

So push me forward, push me down, push me anyway please

It seems I’ve gone absolutely nowhere I’ve just been crying on my knees

Somebody hit the brakes, this earth is spinning too fast

But Kyle, look at your past haven’t you had a blast

Well fuck you and fuck that, that is the reason I am here

My past repeating itself is my biggest fear

I’m a walking oxymoron; I need someone so I can be alone

I always want silence with a thick beat and a tone

I want love and I want trust, that is an oxymoron in itself

And I drink and I smoke and I still want good health

And don’t correct me if I’m wrong but I feel like a loser

I’m a manipulative asshole know as a woman user

So I don’t know where this rhyme is going or how it began

But I can tell you this much I still don’t know who I am